It begins with me!

DISCLAIMER: the following post is the outcome of agitation of the author. Those with narrow outlooks and over rated self pride better don't read. Those ready for spending a minute thinking of something except food, clothes or football: go ahead!

                                       Right since I was a kid, I've always heard "charity begins at home". It was like the most common good thought I would read on the blackboards. It seemed so simple as I grew up. Compared to the huge, complex philosophical things I read around, such thoughts appeared childish. Later on I realised, these good thoughts that I was made to learn in the school in the value education class (if I was lucky enough to have a school with one) were the most hard to implement. Thoughts like "do a good deed daily" or "cleanliness is next to godliness" are something that I preached hard but practised : never. Why? I was too busy! Busy running behind some assignment. Busy fixing up a problem in the computer. Gossiping about who's going out with whom. Busy complaining about the bus I missed. Crying over that one opportunity I couldn't cease. My question is, did those things really deserved that amount of time or attention?

Its a pity that I live in the so called exponential times where indulging into a hobby is done to add the credits to the resume. Its sad to see that I often stand up to some causes not because I am meant to, but because that grabs me attention. Its a pity where I can't stop adding random people on my friend lists judging them on the cute profile picture they had or coolest info updated. While this is happening, I hardly find time to enquire about the sick maid who missed her work. Has my mind become so calculative that human tendency of caring is disappeared? Or just "click and share to save a baby suffering from cancer" is enough?
                           I crib about how dirty our country is. And yes, I don't care a penny while throwing the candy wrapper somewhere on the street. I blame the government for every single mess around though I find voting a waste of time on the only day off I get at the office. I insist my children to study in English medium schools and yet, never introduce them to books better than twilight. I speak in any foreign language I know when I visit MacDonald's and then complain that My mother tongue is disappearing with times. I can spend my Sundays watching stupid shows like "Roadies" and then conclude that "satyameva jayate" is a over-hyped program. I feel the education system is crap, the competition is killing talent. But yes, I don't feel guilty when I buy a seat I don't deserve. And then off course, I attend anti-corruption rallies and light candles that are supposed to change lives. I always walk out of the room without turning off the lights. I keep my laptop on stand-by mode. And then I write a one hundred marks paper of environmental science.what a paradox though : I score! I start driving before I am allowed to. I indulge into addictions, including social networking before I am permitted. But yes, I am too young and too busy to think about social issues. I am too young to start donating. I am too young to be aware of the problems around me. I never realise, I need an intervention.
                       I need to know, when was the last time I felt proud about my country! when was the last time I helped someone random? when was the last time I made someone smile selflessly? when was the last time I stood up for something I felt? when was the last time I fought against some injustice?
when was the last time I made plans of my life that did good to the world?when did I last do my share towards the environment? when was the last time I realised that the change begins with me? and I guess I know the answer for all these questions. But again, I am good at explanations!

P.S.: this article is for those who understood what I meant when I said "I", others : ignore, like 'I' always do.